"Did you ever wonder what it would be like if you weren't you anymore? If you were suddenly gone how would your world react? Whatever you imagined was wrong. There's nothing romantic about death. Grief is like the ocean: it's deep and dark and bigger than all of us. And pain is like a thief in the night. Quiet. Persistent. Unfair. Diminished by time and faith and love."
- One Tree Hill, Season 6
I've been having weird thoughts about it lately. It makes me feel sad and scared, but that's probably how everyone else feels about death. It frightens me to think how my time will end - when, where, and what. There's this melancholic feeling when I try to imagine all the people I've grown so close with, see me gone. Though I am only 19, anything unexpectedly can happen. I don't want death to take me early. I want to fulfill my dreams, to travel the world, to share so much of my time with my children and my children's children, someday. I want to experience growing old with wrinkles and gray hair and to die in my bed looking like that, smiling my last breath away. I would like to imagine death to be peaceful that way.
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